(CNN) -- Britney Spears discussed her court-ordered conservatorship during a hearing Wednesday. Spears spoke by phone, as the audience was virtual, and he read her notes for just over 20 minutes.

The following is a transcript of his comments, which have been lightly edited for clarity.

Britney Spears: Okay, well, I just got a new phone, so bear with me. Well, I have this, I have a lot to say. So, um, bear with me. Basically, a lot has happened in two years. I wrote all this. Last time I was in court, I'll be honest with you, I haven't been back in court in a long time because I don't think they listened to me on any level when I came to court last time.

I brought four sheets of paper in my hands and wrote at length about what I've been through the last four months before I got there. The people who did that to me shouldn't be able to get away so easily. I will recap. I was on a tour in 2018 that I was forced to do. My administration said if I didn't do that tour...

Judge Brenda Penny: Ms. Spears, I hate to interrupt you, but the court reporter is taking note of what you say, so you need to speak a little slower.

Spears: The people who did this to me shouldn't run away and they shouldn't be able to get away that easily. In summary. I was on tour in 2018. I was forced to. My administration said that if I didn't go on this tour I would have to find a lawyer and by contract, his own administration could sue me if I didn't go through with the tour. He handed me a piece of paper when I got offstage in Las Vegas and told me I had to sign. It was very threatening and scary, it was a guardianship. I couldn't even get my own lawyer, so out of fear, I went ahead and did the tour.

When I came out for that I was supposed to do a new show in Las Vegas. I started rehearsing early, but it was difficult because I had been doing Vegas for four years and needed a break in between. But no, they told me this was the schedule and this is how it's going to go. I rehearsed four to four and a half days a week. Half the time in the studio and the other half in a Westlake studio. I was basically directing most of the show at my whereabouts, where I preferred to rehearse and actually did most of the choreography, meaning I taught my dancers my new choreography myself. I take everything I do very seriously, there are tons of videos with me in rehearsals, I was not good. It was fantastic.

It's funny to hear my administration's side of the story, everyone said that I was not in the trials and [that] I never agreed to take my medication, that my medication is only taken in the morning, never in the trial. They don't even see me. So why were they stating that?

When I said no to a dance step in rehearsals, it was like I planted a huge bomb somewhere, and I don't want to live this way. After that, my management, my dancers, and my assistant from the new people who were supposed to do the new show went into a room, locked the door, and didn't come out for at least 45 minutes. Now I'm not here to be anyone's slave, I can say no to a dance step. My therapist at the time, Dr. Benson who died, told me that the manager called him and then at that point and told him that he was not cooperating, not following the guidelines and rehearsals. And he also said that I wasn't taking my medication, which is very silly because I've had the same woman, every morning for the last eight years, give me my same medication, and I'm nowhere near this group of people. It didn't make any sense.

There was a period of a week where they were nice to me... and I told them I didn't want to do that. There was, they were nice to me, they said [that] if I don't want to do the new Vegas show, I don't have to because I was getting so nervous. I said, I can wait. It was as if they had told me that it could wait. It was like literally losing 200 pounds when he said I didn't have to do the show anymore, because I was, I was very, very hard on myself and it was too much.

I couldn't take it anymore. So I remember saying to my assistant, 'but you know, I feel weird saying no, I feel like they're going to come back and be nice to me or ground me or something.' Three days later, after saying no to Vegas, my therapist sat me in a room and told me that she had received a million phone calls about me not cooperating in rehearsals and that I had not been taking my medication. All this was the problem.

Immediately the next day he put me on lithium, out of the blue, he took me off my normal medications that I had been taking for five years and lithium is a very, very strong medication and completely different from what I was [unintelligible]. You can get mentally disabled if you drink too much if you stay with him for more than five months, but he put me on it and I felt drunk, I really couldn't even defend myself. I couldn't even have a conversation with my mom or dad really about anything. I told him that I was scared and that my doctor had me with – six different nurses with this new medication came to my house and stayed with me to monitor me on this new medication, which I never wanted to take to begin with.

There were six different nurses, nurses at my house, so they wouldn't let me take my car anywhere for a month. My family not only didn't do a damn thing, my dad was okay with it, anything that happened to me had to be approved by my dad and my dad acted like he didn't know they told me I had to get tested over Christmas break before about being sent away when my kids went home to Louisiana. He was the one who approved everything. My whole family did nothing. During the two weeks of vacation, a lady came to my house for four hours a day, sat me down, and gave me a psychological test. It took forever. But they told me I had to. After that, I was, I had to after I got a phone call from my father the day after I took the psych test with this lady, basically saying I didn't pass the test or whatever, and whatever.

'I'm sorry, Brittany, you need to listen to your doctors who plan to send you to a little house in Beverly Hills for a little rehab program that we're going to set up for you. You're going to pay $60,000 a month for this.' I cried on the phone for an hour and he loved every minute of it. The control she had over someone as powerful as me she loved to control to hurt her own daughter and 100,000%. He loved it.

I packed my bags and went to that place. I worked seven days a week with no days off, which in California is called sex trafficking. Make anyone work, work against their will, take away all their possessions—credit cards, cash, phone, passport, and put them in a house where they work with people who live with them.

They offer, all would be nurses, security 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. There was a chef who came there and cooked for me every day during the week. They saw me change naked every day, morning, noon and night. My body—I had no privacy door to my room. I gave them eight gallons [30 liters] of blood a week. If I didn't do any of my meetings and [if I didn't] work from eight to six at night, which is 10 hours a day, seven days a week, with no days off, I wouldn't be able to see my kids or my boyfriend.

I never had a say in my schedule, I was always told how to do this, and ma'am, I'll tell you, sitting in a chair 10 hours a day, seven days a week is no fun. Especially when you can't walk out the front door, and that's why I'm telling you this again two years later, after lying and telling the whole world that I'm fine and happy. Is a lie. I thought maybe there was if I said it enough, maybe I could be happy because I've been in denial. I was in shock. I'm traumatized, you know, fake it 'til you make it, but now to tell you the truth, it's okay, I'm not happy. I can't sleep. I am very angry. It's crazy. And I'm depressed. I cry every day and the reason I'm telling you this is because I don't understand how the state of California can have all of this written in the court papers from the moment I filed and do absolutely nothing, just contract with my money, [ to] another person to keep, I keep my word.

Ma'am, my dad and anyone involved in conservatorship and my administration who played two roles and punished me when I said 'no.' Ma'am, they should be in jail. His fantastic tactics, working for Miley Cyrus while smoking dope on stage at the VMAs, nothing has ever been done to this generation for doing bad things, but my precious body has worked for my dad for the last fucking 13 years, trying to be so good and pretty So perfect because she works me so hard when I do everything I'm told. What about the state of California, my father, ignorant father to take his own daughter, who only has a role with me if I work with him, give me back the entire course and allow him to do that to me? That has given these people that I have worked for too much control.

Instead, they also threaten me if I don't go, then I have to go to court, and it will be more embarrassing for me if the judge makes public the scope of the evidence we approve. You have to go. They told me that because of my image I had to go ahead and get it over with. They said that to me, I don't even drink alcohol. I should drink alcohol, considering what they did to my heart.

Also, to the Bridges facility they sent me to, none of the kids thought I was doing this program for four months, so the last two months I went to a Bridges facility, none of the kids there did the program. They never showed up for any of them. You didn't have to do anything if you didn't want to. How come they always made me go? How come I was always threatened by my dad and anyone who persisted, I don't do this, what they tell me to do, enslave myself, are they going to punish me?

Last time I talked to you, just keeping guardianship and keeping my dad, it made me feel like I was dead, like it didn't matter, like nothing was done to me, like you thought I was lying or something. . I'm telling you again because I'm not lying. I want to feel heard and I say this again so you can understand the depth, the degree and the damage... I deserve changes in the future.

They told me I had to sit down and be evaluated, wait for me. Okay, I want to get this over with... I'm sorry for my ignorance, but I honestly didn't know. But honestly, I don't think it's anyone's business to be evaluated. I have done more than enough. I don't feel like I should be in a room with someone offending me trying to question my intelligence, whether I need to be in this stupid conservatorship or not.

I've done more than enough. I don't owe these people anything... it's shameful and demoralizing what I've been through, and that's the main reason. I have never said it openly. And I mainly didn't want to say it outright because I honestly don't think anyone believed me. To be honest with you, the Paris Hilton story, about what they did to her at that school? I didn't believe any of it. Sorry I'm an outsider and I'll be honest I didn't think so. And maybe I'm wrong, and that's why I didn't want to say this, people would make fun of me or laugh at me and say she's lying, that she has everything, that she's Britney Spears. I'm not lying. I just want my life back and it's been 13 years and that's enough.

It's been a long time since I've owned my money, and it's my wish, my dream, that all this ends without being tested again. It doesn't make any sense for the state of California to sit by and literally watch me with their own eyes, make a living for so many people and take so many people—trucks and buses—on the road with me and be told I'm not good enough. But I'm great at what I do. And I don't need people to control what I do and that's enough, it doesn't make any sense.

Looking forward, I'm not willing to meet or see anyone. I've met enough people against my will. I've finished. All I wanted… [is] for this to end and for my boyfriend to take me and share my story with the world, and what they did to me instead of it being a secret from everyone.

I want to be able to be heard about what they did to me by forcing me to keep it a secret for so long, it's not good for my heart as I've been so angry and I cry every day. I am worried that they will tell me, I am exposed to people who did this to me, for my sanity, I need you, Judge, to approve me to do an interview where I can be heard about what they did to me. And in fact, I have the right to use my voice and represent myself.

My lawyer says I can't. Not good. I can't let the public know anything they did to me and by not doing anything... it's not right. In fact, I don't want to interview myself. I'd rather have an open call for the (unintelligible) to listen in which I didn't know we're doing today because they do it than have an interview honestly I need that to get the anger out of my heart and all that not it's fair.

They're telling lies about me and talking about the situation and they make you feel so stupid and I can't say anything. And my own people say I can't fit in two years, I want to record a call to action, that I didn't know we were doing this. And let the public know what they did to me.

I know my lawyers, they warned me to be very careful before I speak. Because I'm overworked at that facility, that rehab place, the rehab place will see me. He told me that I should keep it to myself. In fact, he had grown up with a personal relationship with them. My lawyer, I've been talking to him like three times a week and now we've built a relationship, but I haven't really had the opportunity for myself to personally choose my own lawyer. And I wish I could do that.

I would like to too, the main reason was guardianship without having to be evaluated. I have done a lot of research and there are many judges who are wards of people without having to be evaluated all the time. The only time they don't is when the guardian's relative says something is wrong with [the] person and considers otherwise. And considering that my family has taken conservatorship of me for 13 years, I wouldn't be surprised if one of them had something to say, [that] they go ahead and say, 'We don't think you should be asking this to help her.' Especially if I get my service fair and try to get something like they did to me.

I also want to talk to you about my obligations at this time, which I personally don't think I owe anyone anything at this time. I have three meetings a week that I have to attend no matter what. People I don't know. I'm talking to you today because I feel like Jodi is starting to take it too far with me. They make me go to therapy twice a week and a psychiatrist.

You shouldn't tell me I have to be available three times a week to meet people I don't know. I'm talking to you today because I feel again that this is really my life. I shouldn't be told that I have to work every session with my doctor and then the therapy person was forced to and legally make my life, I shouldn't be told that I have to be available three times a week to people I don't know. Never in the past have I had to see a therapist more than once a week. I have a hard time talking to this man I don't know.

Number one. I'm afraid of people. I don't trust people and the clever setup of being in Westlake, one of the most exposed places in Westlake, that today, yesterday, the paparazzi showed me leaving the place, literally in tears. It's embarrassing and demoralizing. I deserve privacy when I go. I deserve privacy when I go and do therapy, whether it's at my house like I've done for eight years, they've always come to my house. Or with Dr. Benson, the guy, the man who died, I went to a place, similar to the one in Westlake, that was very exposed and really bad.

Okay, where was I? He is identical to Dr. Benson, the one who died legally, yes he 100% abused me, for the way he treated me. And to be totally honest with you..."

*The judge interrupts and asks Spears to slow down her speech so the court reporter can keep up.

Spears: ...is identical to Dr. Benson who died. The one who illegally, yes, 100% abused me for the way he treated me. And to be totally honest with you when he passed, I got down on one knee and thanked God. In other words, he was pushing me again, I have phobias of being trapped in small rooms because the trauma locks me in that place for four months, it's not right to be sent to that small room like that.

Twice a week with another new therapist, pay I didn't even approve of. I don't like it. I don't want to do that. And I didn't do it to deserve this treatment. It's not okay to force myself to do something I don't want to do. By law, and by this whole team, honestly, I should be able to sue them for threatening me and saying, if I don't go to these meetings twice a week, we can't let you go to Maui on your vacation. You have to do what they tell you for this program and then you can go.

And it was very smart to send me to one of the most exposed places in Westlake and knowing that I have the hot topic of conservatorship, more than five paparazzi are going to show up and make me cry walking out of that place. I want to make sure they do this in my house for privacy. I deserve privacy.

The whole conservatorship from the beginning... Once you see someone, whoever they are, in conservatorship, making money, making money for them, and myself and working. That entirety, that whole statement right there, the conservatorship should end. I should have... I shouldn't be under guardianship. If I can work and provide money and work for myself. Has no sense. The laws must change. What state allows people to own someone else's money and accounts and threaten them by saying 'you can't see your money unless you do what we want you to do' and I am paying them and have been since I was 17 .

You have to understand how delicate it is for me every morning to get up to find out, I can't go anywhere unless I meet people I don't know every week in the office, identical to the one where the therapist he abused me a lot. I truly believe that this guardianship is abusive. And they'll say 'Oh, the guardianship is here to help people.' But then there are 1,000 guardianships that are also abusive.

I don't feel like I can live a full life, I don't owe them. I shouldn't go to see a man I don't know and share my problems. I don't even believe in therapy. I always believe that you take it to God. I want to end the guardianship without being evaluated. In the meantime, I want to [see] this therapist once a week. He can come to my house... No, I just want [him] to come to my house. I'm not about to go to Westlake and be embarrassed by all these paparazzi, vicious, disgusting paparazzi, laughing in my face and taking pictures of me. They sent me sending them to the most exposed places, and I told them I didn't want to go there because I knew the paparazzi would show up there.

I've only been given two choices of therapists and I'm not sure how you make decisions, ma'am, but this is the only chance for me to talk to you for a while. I need your help, so if you can let me know where your head is, I honestly don't know what to say, but my requests are only to end conservatorship without evaluation.

I basically want a petition to end conservatorship but I want it to be a petition to end I don't want to be tested to sit in a room with people for hours a day like they did to me before, and they made it even worse for me after that happened, so I'm just... I'm new to this, and I'm looking into all this stuff. I know common sense and the method by which things can end. For the people who have finished without being tested, so I just want you to take that into consideration. I have also investigated.

It also took a year during covid to get me some self-care method. During, covid, he said no services were available. She's lying, ma'am. My mom went to the spa twice in Louisiana during covid. For a year I didn't get my nails done, I didn't get my hair done, no massages, no acupuncture, nothing for a year. I would see the maids at my house every week with their nails done, different each time.

She made me feel like my dad does—very similar behavior to my dad—but a different dynamic. The team wants me to work and stay home, instead of taking longer vacations. There, they use, they are used to me doing a weekly routine for them. And I can't anymore. I don't feel like I owe them anything right now. They need to be reminded that they actually work for me.

I'm also supposed to get to have a friend that I used to do AA meetings with, I did AA for two years to have like, you know, I did three meetings a week, you know, I met a bunch of women there and I can't see my friends who live eight minutes from me, which is extremely strange to me. I feel like they make me feel like I'm living in a rehab program. This is my home.

I wish my boyfriend could give me a ride, and I want to meet with a therapist once a week, not twice a week, and I want him to come to my house, because I actually know I can take a little of therapy (laughing). I think that's... and I'd like to phase in and I want to have a real deal, I want to be able to get married and have a baby. They told me right now about guardianship. I can't get married or have a baby. I have an ID [IUD] in me right now, so I don't get pregnant. I wanted to get the I[U]D out so I could start trying for another baby. But this so-called team won't let me go to the doctor to get him out because they don't want me to have children, no more children.

Basically, this conservatorship is doing me a lot more harm than good. I deserve to have a life. I have worked all my life. I deserve to have a two or three year break and you know, do what I want to do. But I feel like it's a support here, and I feel open and I'm fine to talk to you today about it, but I wish I could stay with you on the phone forever because when I get off the phone, all of a sudden, I hear all these "no's." No, no, no, and then suddenly I feel like they're ganging up on me, I feel intimidated and left out and alone. I'm tired of feeling alone. I deserve to have the same rights as anyone when having a child, a family, any of those things, and more.

And that's all I wanted to say and thank you so much for letting me talk to you today.